(Excerpt from my short story, Life vs. Legacy)
“You made mom cry,” she said, “I hope you’re proud of that.”
The door opened and then closed. I was alone once more.
I looked out the window I stood beside. I watched as the stars shown through space and planets reflected their light. I looked out at the darkness that could kill with such unbelievable ease and it made me wonder how we survived against such odds.
My fingers brushed over the uniform I still clutched to my chest and I could feel the fabric against my skin. It was soft and stiff all in one and I remembered being a boy and dreaming that there would come a day which I too would wear such a uniform.
I knew not what came next for my fate had always been set and suddenly I had derailed it. I was set adrift just like the rest of my species and I knew not where I would go nor what I would find wherever I went.
I was a drifter without a planet nor a purpose, lost amidst vast nothingness.
I looked at my reflection and I saw the faces of the dead and they were disappointed. They had set me, their descendent, on a predestined course but I had strayed from the path. I was going against all they had done, all I had learned, all so many still believed.
I watched as silent tears slipped from the eyes which reflected back at me and felt my body tremble within the numbness of existence.
“I am not,” I whispered in answer to my sister’s final hope for the stranger who had once been her brother.
It mattered not for at least I was alive.