Customs Ignored
I feel mud in my boots, blood on my face.
I watch my father bark orders. I dare not join him.
I wonder what he thinks has become of me. Maybe he thinks I’m dead.
“Many speak of a young soldier who rallied them when all hope seemed lost. They say that solider is you.”
He’s a stranger, this man beside me. He’s dressed in fine clothes.
“They exaggerate.”
“That so? From what I hear they would have turned tail if not for you, our lines would’ve broken. Our king claims he owes you a debt.”
“Spoken to our king often, have you?”
“Enough. Not nearly as often as you, your highness.”
I freeze at the title, one I left behind, one he shouldn’t know.
“Excuse me?”
“You look like her. Your mother’s death was years ago, it’s been longer still since last I saw her, but I haven’t yet forgotten my own niece.”
An old memory, almost gone. My mother’s brother: young rebellious, better forgotten.
There is no hiding from this wild child, now a man returned.
“Do not expose me,” I beg.
“It is silly to think one woman can spell the difference between victory and defeat but I can not watch as my people are slaughtered. Let me serve them in this way.”
“You are ignoring our customs as I once did. Many have done so before us, often to disastrous effect, rarely with success.”
He stands.
“Success eluded me but I do wish it upon you, little niece. I only hope that your price may not be grief as mine was.”
He leaves and I know he won’t reveal me, that choice is still mine.
I watch my father turn. I look away but before my eyes are shielded I catch a glimpse of his. I see grief.