Hues of Uncertainty
“What are you then? A hero or a villain?”
The light above us swung on its chain as the waves buffeted us this way and that, sending shadows dancing across the creaking walls. The flame seemed to catch on his green catlike eyes and I was aware that he was observing me just as intensely as I was him.
“What do you think?,” he asked back.
“I’ve heard the stories…”
“So then why ask a question you already know the answer to?,” he demanded with a scoff as he leaned back in his seat.
“…but you saved my life.”
The light swung towards him and banished all shadows from his visage for only a moment as we stared at each other. He seemed so still in that room of perpetual motion, the only point of stillness aboard the whole ship as if the waves had no effect on him. It was that contrast more than his clothes of brilliant green which drew all eyes to him for he always seemed to be the single point of stolidity upon any horizon. It was also that contrast which drew the eye to that single part of him which seemed always in motion as that empty emerald sleeve forever swung at his side.
“And you,” he countered, “why did they throw you overboard?”
“I already told you, I fell.”
I could have sworn I saw a flash in his gaze.
“Right,” he responded in a tone which dripped with incredulity, “you fell from a ship traveling through calm waters and despite a busy deck no one noticed your absence nor heeded your screams.”
“I did not scream.”
As we continued to stare at each other I found myself faced with a kindred spirit, someone who would never admit defeat, and that frightened me more than any of the stories I’d heard.
“And what is it you wish us to call you again? Miss Helen Gates?”
“Call me? It is my name,” I affirmed with a solidity to my tone as I leaned forward in challenge.
“Is it? I wonder.”
“You’re one to talk. Either your parents were crazed jewel enthusiasts or they didn’t actually give you the name Emerald.”
His eyes narrowed and I reveled in the momentary victory.
“Em Rolds,” he said.
“What?”
“My name,” he explained as he climbed to his feet, his chair screeching against the wooden boards of the floor as he rose, “it’s Em Rolds.”
I watched him with narrowed eyes of my own as he started towards the nearby door, leading out onto the deck, plucking his hat up from where he’d set it earlier, affixing it to his head.
“But so long as you’re aboard my ship you will call me captain.”
“And how long will that be?,” I demanded and I continued observing him as he stood with his back turned.
“That,” he said as he finally opened the door and turned to face me once more, “miss whatever-your-name-is, is entirely up to you.”
He tipped his hat to me as he stepped out before closing the door behind himself. Even through the wood I could hear his resounding tones rattling off orders to his crew as his boots thudded across the deck. I turned to look out the single window in those cramped captain’s quarters and through the glass, warped and stained from the seas relentlessness, I could just make out that emerald colored figure as it moved, even and steady in the face of the waves’ constant motion. He hadn’t actually answered any of my questions but I took pleasure from knowing that I hadn’t answered any of his.
I paused and thought on that for a moment.
Every question he’d asked had been in response to one of my own and even then it had almost felt as if he’d already known the answers. I didn’t know what to think about this ‘Captain Emerald’, or rather ‘Em Rolds’, whether or not I should believe the myriad of conflicting stories about him or even if I should believe my own eyes. He seemed a man of mysteries and I wasn’t sure anyone could really trust such a man. He’d saved my life but even of that I wasn’t entirely sure. Could anybody really be sure of anyone or anything? Nobody ever had been of me.